Life's been crazy, as usual, but I can't say that I would change that for anything. Sometimes I think that crazy is good, and other times that good is crazy... it gets complicated.
But no matter what, I want to talk about something that I've been relearning lately: God won't give up on you. It doesn't matter what you do, how horrible you've been, what your past is like. God simply won't give up. He won't let go. I'm listening to a song by Disciple right now, an older one called After the World. You've probably heard it before...
"Was I there for the worst of all your pain?
And was I there when your blue skies ran away?
Was I there when the rains were flooding you off of your feet?
Those were my tears falling down for you, falling down for you
(chorus)
I'm the one that you've been looking for
I'm the one that you've been waiting for
I've had my eyes on you ever since you were born
I will love you after the rain falls down
I will love you after the sun goes out
I'll have my eyes on you after the world is no more
Did I arrange the light of your first day?
Did I create the rhythm your heart makes?
Could you believe when your candle starts to fade
I want to be the one that you believe
could take it all away, take your heart away"
This song is a direct letter from God to me—this is when I love music so much, when the lyrics stands out among the beat and teach me something that I wasn't even looking for. In this case, it's teaching me that life, however horrible, however hard, is lived with a certain SomeOne at my side. And that SomeOne has loved me since I was born, and He'll love me until the world ends.
That's true for us all—God will never, never let us go or stop loving us. He is there for the worst of our life, just standing there next to us, waiting for us to talk to Him. Waiting for us to recognize Him, to let Him help us through. He won't let you go.